"It Don't Matter If You're Black or White"

RIP Michael Jackson (1958-2009)

I await your tribute CD release and DVD of all your music videos. OW! *grabs the nuts*

Hell Hath No Fury Like My Scorn (Warning: Hilarity DOES NOT Ensue)

I had a reflection period while i was giving blood today. Also while having lunch with an old friend. And i realized, sometimes i scare myself. There are several things that sparked this realization. The main one being the blog of my gentleman friend, Jesse. Jesse writes about how nobody should give a flying fuck about what somebody says to you and how they say it. And I think that is an interesting point of view. Why do i scare myself sometimes? Answer: Everybody has certain buttons that you dont push and I still don't know all of my buttons. And sometimes my buttons depend on my mood. And if my button is pushed I can turn into a very angry person. Which, by the way, I hate. But I feel like i cannot help it. Which also scares me.

The question is, where does this anger come from? And now that i think about it, i wouldnt say its anger. Its just a strong feeling of having to defend myself in any situation. So where does this come from? I think it stems from my childhood (BIG SURPRISE THERE!). Now i had a wonderful upbringing...in the house. But at school i was ALWAYS bullied. I was always made fun of as a young kid and in high school i felt like my character was always being attacked by the jealous, insecure boyfriends of my close friends of the opposite sex. But when college came, it was a fresh start, and i decided that i wouldnt allow myself to be bullied at my new school and have the same stuff happen again.

Maybe the number 1 thing i hate is people talking down to me. I cant stand it. Who are you to talk to me like i am below you? I dont care if you are the richest person in the world, the strongest person in the world, the smartest person in the world, or anything else that you are #1 in the world at. I am equal to you and i deserve to be treated like that. (Jesse if you are reading this, this would be the time where you say something like "I am superior to everybody" orrrr "you ARE inferior to me", something along those lines).

A good thing that has come from all that bullying is that I always stick up for the underdog, the helpless, the bullied. Starting in 5th grade when Varun Gupta was all alone at a lunch table and i went and sat with him and realized he was a pretty cool kid; just misunderstood and hard to understand what he is saying (much like myself i realized a few weeks ago).

If I Was an Athlete, I Could Rule the World

"Cleveland Browns wide receiver Donte Stallworth begins his second day of a 30-day jail sentence today for killing a pedestrian while driving drunk in Florida. The 28-year-old National Football League star's abbreviated jail term came because of his cooperation with investigators and the wishes of the victim's family."

WHAT?!?!?! ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?!

This is ridiculous. Now, if you ask me, humans are superior to dogs. We are their superiors. Michael Vick got 2 years in prison for dog-fighting. Donte Stallworth got 30 FUCKING DAYS FOR KILLING ANOTHER HUMAN BEING!!!! If you ask me, Stallworth's offense is worse than Vick's. I dont care if the man cooperated with investigators and it was the family's wishes. I dont care if the man cured cancer and found a way for us to have world peace. He got behind the wheel of his precious 8 billion dollar bentley and operated a motor vehicle while intoxicated and hit an innocent man crossing the road. If Michael Vick deserved 2 years in prison, Stallworth deserves AT LEAST 5 years. This is ridiculous. If I were an athlete I could go on a rampage like in GTA. I could get all 6 stars and then once i went to court i would get a week in prison. Darn you God for giving me less than spectacular height and athletic ability!!

High School Authorities are the Worst!!!!

Before I start, read this short article. I came across it this morning and i just got SO angry about it. I almost yelled at the computer screen like i did when i watched the redskins finish their season 2-6 after having one of the top 3 starts to the season in the NFC (and thinking about it now still brings tears to my eyes).

http://buzz.yahoo.com/buzzlog/92681?fp=1

My first reaction after reading this: ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME?!?!

My second reaction after reading this: ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME STILL?!?!

My third reaction after reading this: An overwhelming desire to roundhouse kick this authority figure in the face. Give me a break! (Kit-Kat)

This is what i have to say to all teachers and principals on the day of my brother's graduation and so many others: Graduation day is OUR day! It is OUR day! Shut your fucking mouths about "sticking to the rules" or whatever you guys use to go on your pathetic power trips that make you feel like you are big and bad. You aren't given respect, you earn it. And the way to earn respect from high school seniors is to treat them like they are adults!

If a kid wants to blow a kiss to his family, how is that so offensive that you have to send him back to his seat without his diploma. How embarassed he must have been!

At the very end of the article it talks about how they had problems 4 years ago with silly string and beach balls. I can understand the silly string cuz that is messy. But beach balls? where is the harm in that?

My final message to teachers and principals is this: Let the kids have their fun. Graduation day is the culmination of the past 18 years of their lives. It is the celebration of the end of the first chapter of their lives and the beginning of the next. If they wanna blow a kiss to their family, let them. If they wanna hit some beach balls around while they have to sit thru your boring ass commencement, let them. Do not make me blog about this shit again. Or i will find you and dropkick you.

PS- i just saw a commercial for american pie 2 when jim and stifler kiss. You couldnt pay me enough to interlock lips with another dude. Sorry.

Game 3 Frustrations

Game 3 had a bunch of surprises. The Magic shot 62.5% from the field (playoffs record), kobe's free throw percentage for the game was lower than Shaq's career free throw percentage, and Kobe looked human for the first time in this series.

While the series is going like i expected (lakers win first 2, magic win games 3 and 5, lakers win games 4 and 6), it does not make it any easier to watch. Watching alongside my fellow lakers fans i could see the tears forming as Kobe has the ball poked away by DHoward (it was a reach haha) effectively putting the game out of reach. I waited for them to leave my house before I curled up into the fetal position and cried myself.

THE MAGIC WILL NEVER EVER EVER SHOOT LIKE THAT AGAIN! 62.5% is a RIDICULOUS number. I felt like i was watching NBA Jam for super nintendo. They made three baskets in a row ("he's on fire!!") and the hot streak never ended. I think the creation of the Kobe puppet (or an undercover Hedo Turkoglu) in those commercials may have been just the thing that ugly Turkish bastard needed. He is playing like Kobe.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TP6FVc4URSE (funny parody of the puppet commercials)

One thing to say about Kobe. I bet he shot free throws for at least 2 hours today after practice. He is still my Finals MVP. And the MVP of my heart.

Final thing: Tim Floyd, you are a moron. USC is a bunch of cheaters.

To Cut or Not to Cut? That is the Question.

For the last couple of months i have been contemplating buzzing my head, sticking to my normal haircut, or growing my hair out for 6-8 months. It has been 3 months since my last haircut and it is time to make a decision.

Option 1: Buzzing my head -- There have been several drunken nights where my fantastical brain almost made the decision to do this. At one point i was even sitting in a chair waiting to have it done. I have polled my friends at school (paying close attention to the female point of view) and it was pretty evenly split. The girls thought my head was too big. While hearing that i have a big head hurts, i appreciate their true friendship and honest opinion. This would be my decision only because it is something different and it doesnt require much attention. However, i fear i will look like an idiot and must wait for my hair to grow back.

Option 2: Sticking to the Norm -- Safe move. A good look for me. But maybe TOO safe.

Option 3: Growing my hair out -- Some people look good with longer hair. Am i one of them? Who knows. But it's also a lot of work to keep it lookin presentable. I may be too lazy for that.

Lastly, I would like to state that Kobe is one of the sexiest men alive and i will say he gets his first championship without Shaq in 6 games. I would have said 5 games but the championship series is set up so that the Magic have 3 home games in a row and i believe they will win two of those. If game 5 was at LA i would say the lakers win in 5 but that is no the case.